I, PiLL ...

I had my period last last Monday. Since I was going to see my doctor, my mom pushed me to buy the contraceptive pills.

So feeling lost and shy, I asked my sister to follow and ask on my behalf. My doctor gave me Gynera Pill.

I was not ready to take the pill. I hate being nagged by my mom everyday. She really scares that I might get pregnant again.

Oh well. I actually have this gatal feeling to be pregnant again with 2nd baby, probably a girl this time round. But, no lah. I'm still healing from my surgery and I need a new job with BETTER benefits.

But no.

So instead of checking with my inner self, I blindly took the pill on that night. I remembered once I started taking the pill, my breast milk supply will decrease drastically. Its bad enough that the first week of fasting, the supply has dipped slightly. Now...

I did it for my mom's happiness and to make her quiet.

Then on the 6 day of taking the pill, I realised something was amiss. Last Saturday, the haze was so bad that I fell sick and I didn't go to my in-law's house as planned.
I woke up on Sunday with a super bad mood swing.

I became a monster on that day.

The possibility of my behaviour was I was angry at bibik for not waking me up at 2.30am to feed my baby with breastmilk. And after I bathe, I became more angry when I saw bibikz making formula for my baby, afterall, she jollywell knew I was there to breastfeed him.

I practically aimed at my bibikz the moment we reached my house. I made sure she won't held my baby unless if I told to. I made sure she did all the house chores. My voice wasn't a friendly tone and I banged on things a lot. I wasn't happy at anything everything.

but I wanted to go out and my hubby told me to stay in. I became more angry. but I cooled down by bedtime. that's when I realised that I hate the pill. I am not ready to take the pill and never will. I become mad by the pill.

I informed hubby on what happened and he comforted me. I really do enjoy breastfeeding my baby eventhough I still mix with formulae. The bondness is something I can't throw away or stop. I just want it to stop naturally (like when there is totally no more milk supply). Until then, I still want to do it.

Best of all, I decided not to consume the pill anymore. For the first time ever, I'm happy with my decision and I'll make sure that if I do get pregnant, it will be 2 years from now.

so to my mom, Sorry!

PS- for more informations on the side effect of Gynera:

Other minor side effects include:
- Weight gain (usually temporary)
- Weight loss
- Mood changes
- Headaches
- Feeling sick (nausea)
- Breast tenderness
- Brown spots on the skin (chloasma).

Very few women can develop severe complications on the pill. Uncommon though these are, you must stop the pill and call your doctor immediately if you have any of these symptoms:
- Severe abdominal pain
- Chest pain, shortness of breath or coughing blood
- Severe headache that makes you dizzy, weak or numb
- Blurred vision, double vision or loss of sight
- Severe pain in the leg
- Deep depression
- Yellow skin (jaundice)
- Breast lump
- Sudden speech problems.

And the Benefits of Gynera:

The pill can reduce these risks:
- Cysts of the ovaries by 90%
- Ovarian cancer by up to 50%
- Cancer of the endometrium (lining of the womb) by up to 50%
- Extra uterine pregnancy (ectopic or tubal pregnancy)
- Non-cancerous breast disease.

For the majority of women, the pill can improve these conditions:

Painful periods
The pill can have quite a dramatically beneficial effect on your menstrual cycle. In most women it makes their periods less painful, more predictable, lighter and more manageable. It usually means the end of stomach cramps, heavy blood loss and an irregular, unpredictable cycle.

Heavy periods
If you suffer from heavy periods, the pill can help by making them much lighter, more predictable and easier to cope with. Many women are prescribed the contraceptive pill, not just for birth control, but to prevent problems associated with heavy blood loss such as iron deficiency anaemia.

Irregular periods
One of the pill's main benefits is that it regulates the menstrual cycle so that you know exactly when your period will come every month. Many women choose the pill as their birth control method because they don't like having an unpredictable cycle.

Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS)
Many women find that the pill helps to reduce symptoms of the premenstrual syndrome such as bloating, water retention, tender breasts and stomach cramps. Lots of women find that the symptoms of PMS disappear altogether when they’re on the pill.

Protection from ovarian cancer
After ten or more years on the pill, this risk is proven to be reduced between 60% - 80%. Cancer of the ovaries is most common in women in their '50s and '60s. There is no routine screening for this cancer at the moment. Only a quarter of those diagnosed with ovarian cancer will survive for 5 years. If detected early, chances of survival are much higher.

Protection from endomterial cancer
The pill reduces the risk by almost 50%. Consequently, hysterectomy (removal of the womb), oophorectomy (removal of the ovaries), and hystero-oophorectomy(removal of both) are much less common than it used to be because so many women now take the pill.

Protection from PID
The risk of Pelvic Inflammatory Disease is reduced by around 50% if you're on the pill. PID can make you sterile meaning that you may not be able to have children.

Benign ovarian cysts
It is quite common for women of all ages and at all stages in their life to have cysts (small lumps) on the ovaries, which are usually not cancerous. They can still cause discomfort. The pill usually shrinks the cysts, which reduces the discomfort and decreases the risk of further development.

Informations by Gynera Schering.