6 days lesser

it is raining today,
i hope it will shine next week.

i'm happy but yet i am unhappy,
what can you do,
nothing you can do to make me happy,
coz it seems near too late.

i know you think i don't shelter your feelings now,
what with the exams, my pre-marriage depression, etc
to you i am selfish,
a girl who needs constant attention and affection.

but don't worry,
everything will go as plan,
while tears go dry,
and hell, it better be.

i've said this in another blog,
i'm trying hard to be positive,
i'm trying hard to push the negativity,
but i'm trying harder to be excited about the whole thing.

for as much as i love you,
i'm actually hating the process of this marriage thing,
but rest assure, i will still marry you,
for i will try the hardest to make it easier for you, lifetime.

signing off,
a bride.