The Silence

sorry.

It has been so long i heard from her since the last meeting, which wasn't that good. I felt ignored badly with their lame old-school jokes. But then again, we both felt uneasy seeing each other again.

Today i accidentally bumped into her blog by Friendster. I read it and felt slightly jealous at the fact that she didn't include me as her good friends. I knew we had fell apart so far from the moment i graduated from polytechnic. We both knew the main reason for that.

I felt sad then and now. I've always respected her opinions and appreciated her being one of my closest friend in those 3 years in Polytechnic. However, the doom of our friendship was never forecasted. The silence in between grew stronger each day forcing us to be strangers in the end.

Don't you miss the times we have together,
you and me sharing the good & bad things in life,
feeling dejected, rejected, useless, helpful, wanted and being normal,

don't you miss those silly things we laughed at,
our sleepover, my contagious laughter and forever hungry-ness,
your seriousness and blurness in things...

Don't you ever think that we would end up this way,
hating each other glances, words and existence...

Don't you feel sad at the way things is,
thinking i must have ignore u for him,
for me thinking you didn't approve of us being together,
thinking of you closing up again with the old best girl (who ignored u completely then),
for me thinking that you purposely avoiding me,
thinking i must really hate you for the opinions,
for me knowing how hurt it feels when you said 'no' to attending my wedding...

.... the list can go on.

But do you feel we should forgive n give each other another chance at undo-ing those hurtful things we've done the past few years....i think we should coz i still regard you as a friend, i've never stop doing that.

Because deep inside, i know you still know me like you used to.

Probably...