dreams make me love him more
I was listening to Class 95Fm when the deejay was asking the listeners, "Do you ever dream of someone else other than your partner? Why? Do you feel something is lacking in your relationship?" Those questions made me think.
I am originally a dreamer. I love to dream. I've dreamt of being almost everything; a teacher, a top singer, a rich and humble girl, a cool mom and a religious girl. Somehow, just by reading a good novel, I can easily visualise myself as the main character.
Anyway, lately, I've been dreaming of my boyfriend in different situation. I often dreamt that he would left me for another girl. It was like we weren't fated to be together. Many times I saw myself crying madly and slowly fell into depression. It was more like a nightmare.
Last night dream was different though. He didn't left me. He was there by my side. It happened that I was attending some kind of concert or show. I was chatting with some girlfriends when I noticed that the band stopped playing their stuffs. I turned and looked at them, only to see some familiar faces. One was too damn familiar.
He was sitting on the stage, looking as charming and cool as the first time I used to lay my eyes on him. He was staring at me, smiling. He kept on staring. I looked at him, and smiled for a few seconds. It was then that I remembered to go and look for my boyfriend, who was chatting with his friends, somewhere in the concert hall.
Unknown to me, he saw me gazing towards the empty stage. He wondered why and asked, "who were you staring and smiling at?" I looked at him, puzzled. "Erm,..I saw Fir. My ex. I was looking at him." I answered.
My boyfriend looked at me again, worried and told me "but there was no one on the stage dear!" It was later that evening that I got to know about Fir's death. He died in an accident while on the way to the concert to perform.
I had no idea why I dreamt of that. Fir and I broke up years ago. We were still in good terms even after we broke up. It was me who left him for another guy, even though deep inside I knew he loved me like crazy. Still, I never regretted what I did.
I am deeply fanatically crazy in love with my current boyfriend, Fadli aka Kilo. He helped me a lot with my doubts, my fears and my 'parents'. I bet if I've never bother to meet him up and ask him out for coffee, I won't be as happy as I am now.
Still, the dreams scare me off. I'm so scare of losing my boyfriend. So scare of losing him to anyone else. I can't imagine living without him. My boyfriend knows about those dreams and he always managed to calm me down.
"Dreams that you dream always turn out the opposite in real life. Don't think too much about it. It is just your mind playing a game on you," he said.
I was listening to Class 95Fm when the deejay was asking the listeners, "Do you ever dream of someone else other than your partner? Why? Do you feel something is lacking in your relationship?" Those questions made me think.
I am originally a dreamer. I love to dream. I've dreamt of being almost everything; a teacher, a top singer, a rich and humble girl, a cool mom and a religious girl. Somehow, just by reading a good novel, I can easily visualise myself as the main character.
Anyway, lately, I've been dreaming of my boyfriend in different situation. I often dreamt that he would left me for another girl. It was like we weren't fated to be together. Many times I saw myself crying madly and slowly fell into depression. It was more like a nightmare.
Last night dream was different though. He didn't left me. He was there by my side. It happened that I was attending some kind of concert or show. I was chatting with some girlfriends when I noticed that the band stopped playing their stuffs. I turned and looked at them, only to see some familiar faces. One was too damn familiar.
He was sitting on the stage, looking as charming and cool as the first time I used to lay my eyes on him. He was staring at me, smiling. He kept on staring. I looked at him, and smiled for a few seconds. It was then that I remembered to go and look for my boyfriend, who was chatting with his friends, somewhere in the concert hall.
Unknown to me, he saw me gazing towards the empty stage. He wondered why and asked, "who were you staring and smiling at?" I looked at him, puzzled. "Erm,..I saw Fir. My ex. I was looking at him." I answered.
My boyfriend looked at me again, worried and told me "but there was no one on the stage dear!" It was later that evening that I got to know about Fir's death. He died in an accident while on the way to the concert to perform.
I had no idea why I dreamt of that. Fir and I broke up years ago. We were still in good terms even after we broke up. It was me who left him for another guy, even though deep inside I knew he loved me like crazy. Still, I never regretted what I did.
I am deeply fanatically crazy in love with my current boyfriend, Fadli aka Kilo. He helped me a lot with my doubts, my fears and my 'parents'. I bet if I've never bother to meet him up and ask him out for coffee, I won't be as happy as I am now.
Still, the dreams scare me off. I'm so scare of losing my boyfriend. So scare of losing him to anyone else. I can't imagine living without him. My boyfriend knows about those dreams and he always managed to calm me down.
"Dreams that you dream always turn out the opposite in real life. Don't think too much about it. It is just your mind playing a game on you," he said.
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